God, I want You to ruin my life!

Soooooo hi! I have decided that I'm gonna start prayin this prayer. [see subject line]. For soooo long, well for like 6 months or MORE I have been living my life the way I want to. In the beginning of those six months, it was what I thought God might want, but really, it was soo what I wanted.

I started a study at grace point tonight, Search For Significance. I really haven't even started it yet. Today was introduction, but I should prepare ya'll for more bloggys. Cuz you know...once my spiritual life starts bloomin' thats when my bloggys start bloomin'. =) I felt myself take another step today.

OH. So this week was "I'm Your hands". And honestly, I dont say the prayer every hour. Infact I never say it. I don't have an hourly alarm thingy. But funny story, theres this girl at my work who blatantly confessed to me, she didn't need Jesus. She said it in a light casual way, but still. I was struck silent! I probably couldn't help the look I gave her, but she just said it in a way that was like "um HOLY CRAP". I didn't know the words to say, so I somewhat prayed for the words. Not a hard prayer, but I knew that I needed to say the right thing or this girl would never come to know Jesus. She is catholic, and (no offense to any catholics) she said that she thinks its sooo boring just sitting there and listening to the guy talk for 30 minutes or more. And (again no offense) I told her, "yeah if i had to sit through a catholic mass, i'd probably be really bored too!" haha... :) ? .. lol, but then i went to tell her about grace point and how i know exactly what she means, but Pastor Jeff has a way of talking and making it all seem so real that time doesn't really pass when he's talking. In fact, 45 minutes can go by and it feels like MAYBE 10 minutes. And I told her she should come sometime. I know that this was God opening up the opportunity. I know he has many many more conversations to be had with this girly. And as I grow closer to Him through these next 7 weeks as I go "on the search", I will pray that I can convince this girl she DOES infact need Jesus, that is if she wants to go to heaven.


OKay, so God, please ruin my life! the plans I have are sooooo terrible and not working. And I know that YOU know that I know that :) LOL but God how wonderful are you to not hold that against me. to not be the God who says "i told ya so". To be the God who lets me jump right back up into his arms and start over. thank you so much!! i love youuuuu a lot! thanks for tonight and for bringing me into this amazing group of girlsss! yay! im so excited.